my random randoness

so lately whenever im online and want to listen to some music, i just head to this play list of songs ive accumulated over time. its nice collections of songs to listen to if you just want to kick it and relax. i also find myself writing while this is playing, i dont know, sparks ideas maybe? maybe thats why im writing now haha.

as you can see this post is clearly heading in no kind of direction. just a bunch of gibberish. oh yeah i posted a status update on facebook that i was jumping on my bed, never thought so many people would comment on it. haha. to tell you the truth i jumped on my bed cause i thought it was the fastest way from my door to the bed. and did it a second time when i forgot something downstairs and came back up. it was a short lived, but fun childhood, moment.

school started today and i feel like im in high school all over again. im taking straight classes from 10am-7pm with one break in the middle. its like im in high school classes with a lunch break. what, no recess?? i demand a reccess in my schedule. haha. but the one good thing about it is that i only have to do it monday and wednesday, fridays are shortened and tuesday and thursdays im off, schweeet.

so what to do on my tuesday off? have a scheduled appt at 230 but that'll only take about 30 minutes. maybe, maybe ill go to the gym later that night for some pick up volleyball. anyone down to chill afterwards or beforewards(definitely not a word, i dont think haha)? i ask this question like i expect people to read this haha. well the few followers i have, guess that question can be yours to answer. alright im out.

gnight.

sitting, waiting, wishing

as of now, im sitting around my room doing pretty much nothing.

just waiting for something, some idea for what to do today to just fall in my lap.

simply just wishing that i eventually find myself not laying in my bed, well not until 2am.

"...but to tell you the truth, youre not ok..."

first of all today was laundry day and i had no clean shorts to wear out and ended up wearing pants. let me just say, its so effing hot out there with pants on. i tried to even it out and wore a tank instead of shirt, but still uncomfortably hot for me. haha. oh well i got most of my laundry done anyways.

so started the day off with a drive to good ol' suffolk. good ol', far as crap, nothing around it, suffolk. drove out there today for my follow up appointment with my orthopedic doctor/surgeon. walked into the building out in the middle of no where and checked in. as i sat down and opened my book to start reading but i noticed something first, i noticed that i was the only person in that waiting room that looked any age below 25. oh well, can't really come up with a conclusion on why so, just something i noticed. eventually, a couple chapters into my book, i got called into the back for the doc to see me. one thing i never did like was the anticipation of waiting for your doctor to come in and see you, you can never tell if the length of the time spent before he sees you is a sign that things are bad or good. in time he came through the door and asked me a few questions about how i feel about my knee, and how its treating me. and i told him the truth, it felt good, hasn't really bothered me, so yeah just good. then he looked me in the eye and said "...but to tell you the truth, youre not ok..." didn't know what he said after that cause i was lost in thought. i already knew what he was going to suggest, i was just waiting for him to say the word to trigger me back to reality. as soon as he said the word, "surgery", my mindset was just, blah. its not that bad, its just that if you know me really well, my basketball and my volleyball are like my drugs, going without them i go through serious withdrawal haha. but i guess with any passion, anything you love doing so much, the thought of losing it is unbearable. so before december comes around, i gotta start mentally preparing myself for those three months of sitting around and doing nothing. oh well, just my little let down for the day i wanted to share.

p.s. the rest of the day was schweeeeeet.

grudges, regets, and whatnot

"time spent angry, is time wasted and will never get back"

we all seem to be regretful, able to hold grudges, and at times angry. its just being your basic human being. but as time passes by and we get older and wiser we should all learn one thing, time spent angry or regretful is wasted time and time you will never get back. so yes, of course there will be moments where these feelings may come up and of course your entitled to be furious, angry, and what not, but don't let it consume you, don't let it linger on unnecessarily. these feelings of spite have made even the strongest of people come to their knees because they find their way to ruin them and the people they surround themselves with. so if you feel like you've been wronged, talk about it and let it go. if you feel like you regret something you've done, stop regretting, you've done the deed and everything happens for a reason. if you're angry at something, someone, just ask yourself, is it worth it for me to stay angry?, will this accomplish anything? because we all know in the long run it won't. so take a deep breath, think about what bothers you so much and...just let it go.

so im here...

...and i just find my fingers dancing across this keyboard. there's no subject, no one idea to this blog, its all just going to be random thoughts and tangents upon tangents.

so i gotta say a good cover song is something i enjoy finding. its like finding a toy in a cereal box when you pour it into your bowl and you didn't expect one to come out. overall a nice surprise. right now the current cover song im listening to is "wonderwall" by ryan adams. the original by oasis was a little bit more upbeat but ryan's version has a little bit more, let me say feeling to it. makes the word "wonderwall" not seem like some random, made up word. so if you guys know any good cover songs, send them over here, a good one always makes my day that much better.

today i had a few tests done on my knee. you know me always breaking down for some reason, but i come back fiercer, stronger, faster. ok...not really. but i gotta say my resilience is something. its been a few years since my last MRI and you know what i was due for one. and not just to check my knee but to also give me a chance to take a nap, something i haven't done in awhile. they laid me on that MRI table and put some classical music on and five minutes into it, BAM, i was knocked out. embarassed to say that the technician had to wake me up at the end with a tissue in hand because i was semi-drueling, hahaha.

one thing i feel about my life is that im missing that little something something. and i hate to say it, but its a girl. i never like to admit it, but for me its always easier to admit something on paper, online in a blog, in a note, than in person. but i dont know maybe im just envious of the people who do have a significant others. and it doesn't help that the closest of my friends and friends in general are all in relationships. i dont know it just seems to make things a little bit easier with someone. know someones there to talk to no matter what, hangout, help you with the littlest to the biggest favors. just easier. i guess for me it'll happen in time.

and now im left with the debate of whether to wake up super early tomorrow. as of now im writing in this blog of mine at 120am and probably won't fall asleep till like 3am. and its not the waking up part thats hard, its the staying up and getting out of bed. my goal for waking up tomorrow morning is 645am, just enough time to eat, stuff my board in my car, and drive. i gotta say, outta alot of things in this world, wading in the ocean on a board at dawn is one of the most relaxing things i have ever done. so hppefully i get to enjoy that tomorrow. someone give me a wake up call. thanks. haha.

alright after all my tangents and randomness, im heading to bed. goodnight.

the beautiful game

now that i have verizon fios and have close to 700 channels, i can never find anything to watch cause with too many choices cause crazy indecision. but lately i have found myself watching the fox soccer network. watching games from the barclay premiere league to italian serie a. it makes me want to learn the game again but oh well, im stuck with the sports i already know. i'll just live bicuriously through these players on tv. alrighty well back to the game. oleee ole ole oleeee.

winding down

so so so so. not too much happened today. lets see started the day off by waking up to a chain reaction of text messages, i would check one and put my phone down and immediately another text would come in. not the greatest wake up call but oh well. then went downstairs to check the fridge to see whats good to eat. but guess what...nothing. and we all do it, i know you do, we all love to check the fridge and find out nothing is good in there and close it, three minutes later we all find ourselves opening the fridge again in hopes that something magically appears that we would want to eat, and this happens at least three or four times haha. after that got ready to head to BG so that i would be able to use my funpass twice and make it worth buying it. ehh but BG is like a once a summer thing so it was fun just not great, not worth all the walking today. afterwards we dropped off my friend back to her apt at william and mary. this right here is the highlight of the night. soo i walked into the living room and first things i noticed was a zebra head (not a real one, paper mache) and the hot ass room. so i wanted to see why it was so hot and i went to go find the AC unit and found that a blind was blocking the air flow. so as i moved the curtains out of the way, my graceful self knocked down the the zebra head and broke the zebra's ear, and then as that was falling i pulled on the blinds and took the blinds right off the hinges and tore it down which fell on my foot. this all happened within a thirty second span. hahaha. all my friends could do was laugh till tears on the ground. me on the other hand tried to fix both the zebra and blinds to the soundtrack of laughs. eventually i was like eff this, lets go, haha. after that it was a trip back home, and now here i am. well thats my day. thanks for reading.

p.s. 6-8' waves tomorrow, pray i dont drown, thanks.

ted chung

these two videos are great short films, check em out.

time

you know im not very good with the concept of time and all it encompasses. like you know managing it or making time for people or errands. i think today was the first day in a long time that i actually had a full day of doing things. woke up at 630am to go to the beach to surf, left to head into work, left work to head to the bank, left the bank to pick up some groceries, left store to sleep. and now here i am. i dont know, i feel like these past three or so years that my life hasn't had much structure that adding a schedule would be just another...hassle? and when i say no structure, it doesnt mean anything bad at all. i like the fact that my time, is MY time. do whatever i please or dont do it. i like time to be free flowing and spontaneous, no plans...for now. cause we all know that we have to grow up someday but until then fuck it. no structure=sweetness.

p.s.

im going to try to keep up with this blog, i seem to always find myself straying away after awhile.

in search of...

well just to give a brief explanation of why i chose "in search of..." as a title. first we're all in search of something whether we know it or not and lastly i'd just like to talk about things im always on a quest to find like the best philly cheese steaks or food in general, meaning to anything, people (good people not just anyone), a perfect wave (poster reference), and just anything to keep me from being bored outta my mind. so there.