Hmm.

Since I created a tumblr, this thing has gone without a fresh idea. Well here's a fresh idea. Check it. Haha.

I need to mass produce these things...

basicall just....blowin' through the jasmine in my mind

A blog entry of a writer i follow...

...which I decided to post because I can relate to this.

The rules are the rules.

No talking. No checking in. Maybe a holiday and a birthday, but never a phone call, only a text. There’s no Facebook. No Twitter. No online chatting. No emailing.

Day-to-day business, I don’t need to know. Week in, week out, what are you up to? None of my concern. The rules are the rules. I understand them. I follow them. But the other day, I was thinking, what if something big, good or bad, happens? Am I to know? Won’t you tell me?

Probably not and that’s fine. I understand. The rules. I remember.

But please remember this:

I still hope you’re doing well, and that is what I always assume, that you’re doing okay for yourself and you don’t need me for anything at all. But sometimes I wonder about you. What if you weren’t doing well, and things weren’t working out quite the way you planned, would you call me? Probably not. I know there’s someone new and they’re the one getting the call when you need someone the most.

That’s fine. Let him have that, but hey, just so you know, I care too. Put me down on that list of people who give a damn when your life is changing in the most beautiful or most ugly ways. I want to know. Not because I’m nosy, but because I care.

I never stopped caring about you. I never stopped caring about, you know, your life. We just broke up and decided not to be each other’s other. We stopped working at it, but my heart never stopped working.

What I’m trying to say is…we never talk, but I still care. I need you to know that.

Yeah, I know, I said I missed you. But nobody’s talking about missing anybody today. That’s a fleeting feeling. It comes. It goes. It has nothing to do with what I’m writing today.

Today, I’m talking about caring and how I still do that thing for you. From the moment I started I never stopped. The caring never fled.

I care about you, and not just one you. All of you, who have ever been in my life long enough for me to care in the first place. I still care in this new place, the one that exists without you right by my side. I know we don’t talk anymore. I know we don’t text or email. I know…the rules.

I just needed you to know, all of you to know, I still care. I never stopped. And I sincerely hope, you never did either.

karaoke go-to song of the weekend. haha.

with an encore presentation of....

its a odd feeling i must say, to be content but to yearn for something even though you might not know what it is you want.

-me

i gave up on some aspects of life awhile back and i don't know if i can find a way back there.

the older you get the more you realize that some people are around your entire life while others just make an appearence.

You cannot really have the world and hold on to it. It is all too temporary and the more you try to hold on to it, the more it actually holds you. By contrast, the more you hold on to the true and the good, the more you are free to really live.

sleep to dream

i had a dream the other night. i dreamt was surrounded by family, in the company of good friends, and that i was hand in hand with a lady. the only thing out of those three that felt so unreal was the lady by my side. with her i saw myself laughing, smiling, having fun, all in all just plain ol' happy. and its sad to say that i didn't want to wake up because in that moment while i was asleep, i felt so good, so happy, happier than if i was actually awake. and i haven't felt that kind of euphoria in a long, long time. i want to feel that way again. just one more time. just one more chance.

There are two tragedies in life. One is to lose your heart’s desire. The other is to gain it.
-George Bernard Shaw

"When you have once seen the glow of happiness on the face of a beloved person, you know that a man can have no vocation but to awaken that light on the faces surrounding him; and you are torn by the thought of the unhappiness and night you cast, by the mere fact of living, in the hearts you encounter."

Boing! Boing!

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random quiz, not so random

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This quiz had a remarkably uncanny ability to pin point a lot of things about me. So if you did not know me before, just check this out and you can have the inside scoop.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Realization that...

...there are moments in life where you have to be strong for those who are not able to find the strength.

long time, no type

so this blog of mine has been sitting on my bookmark toolbar untouched and thought i should show it a lil' love. to tell you the truth i haven't really ignored this blog, i just haven't found a reason to use it. i made this blog to vent, to talk to it at the wee hours of the morning since no one is up that late, but lately there has been no reason to vent. life has been good, easy going, and just flowing at a nice pace. last time i entered an entry christmas happened which always means a good time, nye was dope as it is every year, a much need snowboard trip to WV which started rough but ended perfectly, and the beginning of my last semester. since then i can't complain about anything, although i wouldn't mind a gorgeous girl ending up on my doorstep. well everyone have a good night, i know i will being passed out. adios.