"...but to tell you the truth, youre not ok..."

first of all today was laundry day and i had no clean shorts to wear out and ended up wearing pants. let me just say, its so effing hot out there with pants on. i tried to even it out and wore a tank instead of shirt, but still uncomfortably hot for me. haha. oh well i got most of my laundry done anyways.

so started the day off with a drive to good ol' suffolk. good ol', far as crap, nothing around it, suffolk. drove out there today for my follow up appointment with my orthopedic doctor/surgeon. walked into the building out in the middle of no where and checked in. as i sat down and opened my book to start reading but i noticed something first, i noticed that i was the only person in that waiting room that looked any age below 25. oh well, can't really come up with a conclusion on why so, just something i noticed. eventually, a couple chapters into my book, i got called into the back for the doc to see me. one thing i never did like was the anticipation of waiting for your doctor to come in and see you, you can never tell if the length of the time spent before he sees you is a sign that things are bad or good. in time he came through the door and asked me a few questions about how i feel about my knee, and how its treating me. and i told him the truth, it felt good, hasn't really bothered me, so yeah just good. then he looked me in the eye and said "...but to tell you the truth, youre not ok..." didn't know what he said after that cause i was lost in thought. i already knew what he was going to suggest, i was just waiting for him to say the word to trigger me back to reality. as soon as he said the word, "surgery", my mindset was just, blah. its not that bad, its just that if you know me really well, my basketball and my volleyball are like my drugs, going without them i go through serious withdrawal haha. but i guess with any passion, anything you love doing so much, the thought of losing it is unbearable. so before december comes around, i gotta start mentally preparing myself for those three months of sitting around and doing nothing. oh well, just my little let down for the day i wanted to share.

p.s. the rest of the day was schweeeeeet.